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26 January 2009 @ 09:51 am
Tao of the Day  
The key is changing our habits and, in particular, the habits of our mind. I remember the day I understood without question that we create our situation by how we use our mind, by how we keep patterning our responses to life in the same old, very dusty, utterly predictable way. A situation came up about money. We were running out of money. I began to get tense. I felt as if a huge weight were literally sitting on my head. I began to panic. I had to find a way out. Until I found a way to solve this problem, I could not relax. I couldn't enjoy the sunshine on the water or the eagle sitting in a tree right outside my window.

The whole thing was hauntingly familiar. Why I caught it this time more dramatically than ever before, I don't know. Probably it was a result of all the years of looking as honestly and uncritically as I could at my experience. Possibly it was also a result of all the meditation training I had done in seeing when I'd spin off and then just coming back to the present.

At any rate, that day I caught it. Right there in the middle of a very habitual state of mind, I saw what I was doing. I not only saw what I was doing, I also stopped. I stopped following through with my habitual plan to save the day. I decided not to rush around trying to avert disaster. I let the thoughts that "only I could rescue us" come and I let them go. I decided to see what would happen without my input - even if it meant that everything would fall apart.

Sometimes you just have to let everything fall apart.

- Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times